2 little words

thats all it takes just 2 little words and the fear disappears, the insecurity washes away like mud in the rain, doubt and remorse turn in to dust

just 2 little words and i feel alive again, i can jump to the heavens, catch a star with my hands, feel the drums of my heart racing

when i ear does 2 little words i can see you in the sun, feel you in the air, taste you in the honey and smell you in the flowers

i wait for the day that 2 little words turn in to a life time of happiness and joy, when 2 little words turn in to mountains of epic poems describing what your smile looks like, poems that even Homer could not write because when i ear does 2 little words it echos in my soul, like thunder illuminating a darken sky until the day we are together, until the beat of our hearts create wonderful music and  our kisses will be brighter than a million suns. Until we are forever together "Como estas?" will have to do just 2 little words i can live by and die by

Filter

Theres a brick wall in front of me, its fucking huge. I am suppose to pass it, but well, i dont know if i can. There are people on the side line watching waiting, some of them are cheering me on, other are waiting for me to fail most are spectators who dont give a fuck what happens as long as they get a show.

Heres the kicker, its not a wall but a filter. A filter put there by society in conjugation with entropy, a filter other have past and other will pass; its so beautiful it gives Darwin a boner. But for me its not a filter but a brick and mortar wall preventing me from passing, to what you say ? i have no fucking idea, not a fucking clue, its a fucking shot in the dark trying to imagine whats on the other side, trying to imagine whats on the other side is like pissing in the wind and staying dry, impossible I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E.Well at least for me, other "well adjusted" members of society pass right trough it, some even run pass it like its never there (some lucky bastard have so much money they never see a filter or a wall in their whole lives).

Fuck me

Do i want to pass it? do i need to do it? FUCK YEA NIGGER Cant raise a family on less than 20 hours a week at your local retail stores. I bet you fucking crack heads work more than 20 hours a week, fucking out there all day stealing, hustling, doing something to get their fix, and even if they are the epitome of "social piraya" does needle heads got on the other side of the wall.

SINK OR SWIM

DO OR DIE

fuck me why is this wall so cold???

Facebook got my dick hard

Reasons why i want to kill my self

I got home from work yesterday and the first ting I did was turn on Facebook, its become a part of my daily routine
-Get up

-Take a crap
-Take a shower
- Eat breakfast
- Turn on Facebook

Every day with out fail I turn on Facebook, it’s how I start and end my days, kind of sad.
Anyways yesterday I got home from work and I turn on facebook, a girl that I fancy was online, lets call her mmmm Carolina.

She is definitely a looker, besides her beautiful face and greats pear shape ass and perky tits she as an attribute that really appeals to me, whenever I talk to her I feel normal, I feel like just a normal guy talking to a girl.

Carolina and I have gone on a single date (if you could call it a date) we went to a burger place called “In & Out” we talk we laugh. In days before this I would always feel that she was hitting on me that is why I asked her out.
So when Facebook come up and she is online I engage in small talk work, food and friends. Some five minutes into the conversation she goes quiet and does not write anything (happens often in instant messages conversation) I take this opportunity to put on some music (radiohead) after that I come back to the conversation and re-engage her, the first ting she writes

… me gustas mucho (Spanish for “I really like you”)
BIG CRESCENDO
For a split second I was happy and in a instant after my brain registered the information in front of me my heart started pumping and it all went directly to my junk, in less then a second a erection was growing in my pants, I was not  yet fully pitching a tent but I was definitely at half mast.

I am 26 years old if I was 15 the first ting I would have done was write back something like “I really like you too, were are you?” but since I have more then a decade in experience in the art form of rejection, I just wrote “?” the first ting that went trough my mind was that her little brother got to her computer and was at no good. After the longest minute in my life she writes back “perdon me  equivoque de chat”  that Spanish for “FUCK OFF IM DATING SOME ONE ELSE”

“Sorry wrong chat window” Jesus Fucking Christ, well there goes my erection.

FACEBOOK GOT MY DICK HARD.

Rejection at the bank

Luis and Gustavo two brothers walk in to a bank asking for a loan to help out their ill mother, they dont get it

This piece is in Film Format so read with your eyes...

i mean its a visual thing

INT. Bank Day

Luis and Gustavo are sitting in front of a desk; there is a calm air around them while the Loan Supervisor behind the desk looks at their case.

GUSTAVO

So is everything in order?

The man checks the papers one last time and stands up

Loan Supervisor

Let me show this to my

Supervisor

The man get up and goes enters a back door

Loan Supervisor

Hey Carlos check this out

The door flaps close

GUSTAVO

I think its going well

The door flaps open

On the other side there are two men in suit laughing out loud

Loan Supervisor

Hey Alice check this out at this

The door flaps close

GUSTAVO

I really hope we get it this time

The door flaps open

This time there are two men plus a woman laughing really loud

ALICE

O my god are you serious?

The door flaps close

GUSTAVO

I mean this is the fifth one we been

Too this week

More and more suits walk in to the door to join the party, their laughter is heard in the whole back

Luis gets up and motions Gustavo to follow suit, Gustavo gets up with a concern look on his face

GUSTAVO

We should wait for him

They are interrupted by the laughter of a teller and his client, both of them are pointing at them

LUIS

Lets just go

We wont get the loan

GUSTAVO

How do you know that?

LUIS

Really? are you ...

lets just go

GUSTAVO

I mean there is still a chance

Right?

A woman with a small child pass by both of the brothers

Child

Nop

My Dream about you

By Gonzalo

The other day I hade a dream
A beautiful dream
It was about you
And it was about me

We were standing together
Facing at each other
You hade a smile
A smile that light up the room

It happen so fast
It happen so quick
In the blink of an eye
You gave me a kiss

On that single moment
Time stopped and the universe imploded
For that single moment every thing was perfect
And nothing could go wrong

But after all it was just a moment
After a second in bliss
Reality sinks in
I get up and the moment is gone

Writing by gonzalo

I just wanted a space were I could post my thoughts, I do have a binder at home but that is dated.
I hope this space will grow and more people will join and in time post any material they want to be read, I want to think about this place as a cyber literally buffet, come in and take a plate